My Greatest January :)

well .

everything changes since you came back .

all of the things in my life , look much more greater .

yeah , everything is splendid .

to tell the truth , i never thought that everything will turn out to be like this .

too complicated yet too great , too splendid for a person like me .

at first , i really thought that i could get over you .

i really thought that we are done , we are just a friend .

even thought that you wont ever look for me again .

tell myself that i should treat you just like an ordinary friend .

i even did something foolish, accepted a beast .

thinking back about that , really, i feel so shameful .

yeah , i know that i hurt him .

but i cant lie to myself anymore .

i have had it enough and i really get enough of it .

keep lying to myself , saying that you are really just a friend to me .

i've got no feeling to you , not at all .

thinking that you really treated me just as a friend to you .

even thought that we really got nothing to do with each other .

but , you showed me that none of them is true .

we really got something .

something that i have never known before .

i dont even dare to hope .

honestly , 

even before you come back , i have been hoping this thing between us , could improve .

 really did put a lot of hopes .

in the end , you made feel like you don't care at all .

days passed , you changed totally .

you started to make feel that you do care for me and i do mean something to you.

but when i was at sg , i didn't why , i just thought it was really over .

i have to put an end on this thing .

i really thought that i could do that .

but when i saw your face , again .

i could do nothing anymore.

i need you more than i could realize , i really do .

i just cant imagine , what am i going to do without you later ?

i am really afraid , wei .

you are important for me .

too important .

you are really the first .

i have never been this crazy before .

the first time when i feel so comfortable , i even could be myself whenever im with you .

i dont have to pretend , i could be myself .

i am truly happy whenever im with you .

eventhough sometimes , friends are asking .

"dont you feel that its unfair to you ?

we all know about your relationship , even your parents .

but what do you get from him ?

do his friends know about you both ?

has he ever brought you out together with his friends

he doesnt even ask you a question that plays the most important role in both of you"

well , friends i just could answer.

i am fine with it , i really do .

as long as he is here , nothing is a problem for me .

and i believe i can solve it .

that is not important for me .

why should i ask for those things when things are getting better for me ?

without that status , still , i am very happy .

i cant deny that it bothers me sometimes .

but when i know he is always there for me , its more than enough for me .

i wont ask for anything better , because this moment is the best moment for me

but whatever will happen , i am really so grateful and thankful that i found you .

my guardian angel :)