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the rain have stopped finally .

but i just dont know why .

i love the smell of the rain .

do somebody feel the same ?

:)

最经的我真的快要崩溃了

不知道为什么自己就是无法停止想你

其实心里很清楚，这一切真的没那么容易

it's time for me to stop lying myself .

i have been lying to myself since you appeared in my life .

and now should be the time for me to stop .

i have had it enough .

what should i do now ?

i do feel something wrong now .

i really cant imagine how my days would be without you .

time is running up for both of us .

i really wish that i could tell him everything that i have been struggling .

i think i really should clarify all of these things .

说真的，我需要一个肯定

这样下去真的会有结果吗？

可是，我真的无法放开你了

i hate how much i need you boy .

so sorry if i can't let you go anymore .

im trying to do my best , just let God do the rest for me .

it's killing me .

well .

these few days have really been a headache for me .

too many things that trouble me .

what should i do ?

now shouldnt be the time for me to think about those stuff .

but i just cant control myself .

especially today .

it is really a hard day for me .

i can hardly calm myself down .

dont know why , tears just keep falling down .

and i dont know whom i should talk to .

whom can i trust .

and i really need someone by my side now .

选着相信你的我，现在真的不知道该怎么做了

damn headache .

it's been 6 months since you came into my life .

really thanks for everything that you have done for me .

i do appreciate it alot .

you really bring out the best in me .

i never ever thought that i could feel like this .

never since then.

but you showed me something different , wei .

the world that i have never known before .

i never know that something can be done in just such a simple way .

really never do .

you made me believe in it once again .

and sometimes , i just can't believe that you are really here by my side .

you are always there whenever i need you .

but what can i do to make this moment stays forever ?

i really wish that i can , whatever it takes .

i really do .

but i realize .

we r going to lead our own way .

i do hope that this can work for both of us .

but still , i am really afraid that it will turn out to be just another disappointment .

i don't care who is gonna hurt me , disappoint me , dislike me .

i really don''t care .

but it's just can't be you .

i would rather never have you at all , better than i have to feel how hurt it will be by losing you .

i know , it will be hard for me to let go at that time .

you make me feel like that you are really the one , wei .

i can only do my best , and let God do the rest for me .

these few days have been really hard for me .

i am really lost now .

My Everything - 98 degree

The loneliness of nights alone
the search for strength to carry on
my every hope has seemed to die
my eyes had no more tears to cry
then like the sun shining up above
you surrounded me with your endless love
Coz all the things I couldn't see are now so clear to me

You are my everything
Nothing your love won't bring
My life is yours alone
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Every night I pray
On bended knee
That you will always be
My everything

Now all my hopes and all my dreams
are suddenly reality
you've opened up my heart to feel
a kind of love that's truly real
a guiding light that'll never fade
there's not a thing in life that I would ever trade
for the love you give it won't let go
I hope you'll always know

You are my everything
Nothing your love won't bring
My life is yours alone
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Every night I pray
On bended knee
That you will always be
My everything

You're the breath of life in me
the only one that sets me free
and you have made my soul complete
for all time (for all time)

You are my everything (you are my everything)
Nothing your love won't bring (nothing your love won't bring)
My life is yours alone (alone)
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through (your spirit pulls me through)
When nothing else will do (when nothing else will do)
Every night I pray (I pray)
On bended knee (on my knee)
That you will always be
be my everything

chorus repeats

[almost spoken:] Every night I pray
down on bended knee
that you will always be
my everything
oh my everything

-_-

well , just met you for awhile today .

and i really miss you .

have been hoping you will come here tonite , but still .

you cant make it .

really miss you alot , wei :((

 

few weeks left .

and you are going back to there .

haihh .

it really bothers me , i have been thinking about it these few days .

what am i going to do without you by my side ? :(

i have been relying on you since you came back here .

now , i dont even dare to say that i miss you .

afraid that myself will sink deeper in it .

no matter what , i know i have to get used to it , but just let me rely on you when you are still here .

just let me spend these few weeks happily with you .

you really showed me the things that io have never known before .

truly appreciate all of the things that you have done for me .

really do .

if u're asking do i care for you , i do .

if u're asking do you mean something to me , you mean everything to me :)

your spirit pulls me through , when nothing else will do .

My Greatest January :)

well .

everything changes since you came back .

all of the things in my life , look much more greater .

yeah , everything is splendid .

to tell the truth , i never thought that everything will turn out to be like this .

too complicated yet too great , too splendid for a person like me .

at first , i really thought that i could get over you .

i really thought that we are done , we are just a friend .

even thought that you wont ever look for me again .

tell myself that i should treat you just like an ordinary friend .

i even did something foolish, accepted a beast .

thinking back about that , really, i feel so shameful .

yeah , i know that i hurt him .

but i cant lie to myself anymore .

i have had it enough and i really get enough of it .

keep lying to myself , saying that you are really just a friend to me .

i've got no feeling to you , not at all .

thinking that you really treated me just as a friend to you .

even thought that we really got nothing to do with each other .

but , you showed me that none of them is true .

we really got something .

something that i have never known before .

i dont even dare to hope .

honestly , 

even before you come back , i have been hoping this thing between us , could improve .

 really did put a lot of hopes .

in the end , you made feel like you don't care at all .

days passed , you changed totally .

you started to make feel that you do care for me and i do mean something to you.

but when i was at sg , i didn't why , i just thought it was really over .

i have to put an end on this thing .

i really thought that i could do that .

but when i saw your face , again .

i could do nothing anymore.

i need you more than i could realize , i really do .

i just cant imagine , what am i going to do without you later ?

i am really afraid , wei .

you are important for me .

too important .

you are really the first .

i have never been this crazy before .

the first time when i feel so comfortable , i even could be myself whenever im with you .

i dont have to pretend , i could be myself .

i am truly happy whenever im with you .

eventhough sometimes , friends are asking .

"dont you feel that its unfair to you ?

we all know about your relationship , even your parents .

but what do you get from him ?

do his friends know about you both ?

has he ever brought you out together with his friends

he doesnt even ask you a question that plays the most important role in both of you"

well , friends i just could answer.

i am fine with it , i really do .

as long as he is here , nothing is a problem for me .

and i believe i can solve it .

that is not important for me .

why should i ask for those things when things are getting better for me ?

without that status , still , i am very happy .

i cant deny that it bothers me sometimes .

but when i know he is always there for me , its more than enough for me .

i wont ask for anything better , because this moment is the best moment for me

but whatever will happen , i am really so grateful and thankful that i found you .

my guardian angel :)