these few days were just like a nightmare for me .
don't know why , i just felt hopeless .
everything changes in my life .
no more old days .
no more happy things .
it really such a bad thing for me .
still , i could say nothing ,
and really , i don't know whom i should talk to .
i do admit that , it troubles me , alot .
it seems like a nostalgia for me .
i have ever felt the same way .
but that time , i had you .
you were there whenever i needed you .
but now . im alone .
facing such condition , to tell the truth .
im not good at it .
i know , people keep saying that im a strong girl .
but what i have been struggling , do somebody know ?
what i have been facing , do somebody care ?
what im feeling actually , nobody knows .
nobody cares .
where have you people been ?
i could feel nothing about your existence anymore , my bdj .
everything changes drastically .
and i don't know what should i do and say anymore .
it's just completely different now .
honestly , i am afraid .
i feel like i am losing you all .
well , it just feels terrible .
