my future .

talking about my future , i feel extremely afraid now.

what will i be ?

where i should go ?

what should i take ?

the question that always bugging me .

i have just had a consultation with my teacher just now .

told him that i am confused .

jakarta or singapore ?

business management or hospitality ?

he told a lot of things to us , it's a great help too .

but still , i am confuse .

he even suggested me to take any major that related to public relation .

what is exactly that thing ?

honestly , i don't really understand about this kind of stuff .

but i have been trying to dig all of the information .

just hoping it will be a help for me .

to tell honestly .

at the beginning , i have taken my decision .

singapore is my destination .

i have been trying so hard , learning so hard and preparing myself for all the things that needed for me to go to singapore .

be able to enter a well-known university.

but now , everything seems changing .

i am facing a very big obstacle now .

i can't deny that i want so badly to continue my study at jakarta .

friends play a great part in it too .

most of them have decided , they are going to jakarta for sure .

yet myself , can't even decide it .

i really wanted to tag along with them , always stay together with them .

but i know , it's impossible .

we still have to lead our own path .

i wish i could just follow my heart .

i know , deep inside my heart , it already got an answer for me .

now , it;s the task for me to find that answer ;)

i really can't bear to part with all of you , dears .

jn , sis , des , jes , kel , vn , sal , evi , edw , boby , ws , erck .

all of you .

but i know , we are going to lead our own life .

we are on different ttrack now .

we all have a different destination .

i really wanted that all of you cherish the rest of time that we have now .

i may be an annoyance for you all .

i may be an emotional person for you all .

and i may be "fierce" for you all .

boys even call me "lao da" . haha

but deep inside your heart , i believe that you people know that i mean no harm .

it's just my character . my dominant character .

and i can't change it .

the thing that you people should know , i love you most .

the greatest thing that have ever happened in my life , and you will always be :)

no matter what decision that i'm gonna take .

i will do my best for my parents .

i would never ever let them down .

i will repay all of the things that they have done for me :)

i love you , dad mom <3