finally , i am backk !!

wow !

i miss this blog badly !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

really do .

spent the rest of my holiday at batam .

and have been thinking alot of thing too .

honestly , i just can't get myself to stop thinking about him .

i hate myself for being like this .

i really do .

i admit that i miss him alot , miss the days we spent together .

should i talk to you , my girls ?

but at least , i had texted des and told a bit about that .

i do realize that i haven't got over him yet .

he still means something to me .

one of the reason that i don't want to come back here is him .

too many memories .

anything about myself reminds me of you .

why ? why should i feel like this ?

what should i do with it ?

since he left , this is the first time that i feel something empty .

i don't have the other choice .

i have to forget all of these , i have to .

well , let time heals everything .

yes , i just need time :)

my bluedjefv .

damn missing youu !

we should have our gathering as soon as possible .

unless you people wanted to see me die ,

lol .

but i am talking serious now .

:D

the only thing that i feel now is confused !

haha .

my BB bat is really freaking me out .

i shouldn't let myself actually , but i just can't stop thinking about it .

haha .

feel weird lately .

do something happen ?

or what ?

i just wish that i could do something for a reason now . at least , one .

not like this .

i keep doing things without reasons , and i feel lost .

i really hope that i could back to myself .

back to where i should be .

其实真的很想大大声地哭出来，这样做也许会让自己好过一些吧

可是，可以吗？

真的觉得好难受

我不想自己一个人.

但是自己也不想再痛了

连我自己也已经搞不懂自己要得是什么了

well , just let nature takes it course :)

p.s

I'm Looking At You and My Heart Loves The View :)