uncontrol-able

these few days were just like a nightmare for me .

don't know why , i just felt hopeless .

everything changes in my life .

no more old days .

no more happy things .

it really such a bad thing for me .

still , i could say nothing ,

and really , i don't know whom i should talk to .

i do admit that , it troubles me , alot .

it seems like a nostalgia for me .

i have ever felt the same way .

but that time , i had you .

you were there whenever i needed you .

but now . im alone .

facing such condition , to tell the truth .

im not good at it .

i know , people keep saying that im a strong girl .

but what i have been struggling , do somebody know ?

what i have been facing , do somebody care ?

what im feeling actually , nobody knows .

nobody cares .

where have you people been ?

i could feel nothing about your existence anymore ,  my bdj .

everything changes drastically .

and i don't know what should i do and say anymore .

it's just completely different now .

honestly , i am afraid .

i feel like i am losing you all .

well , it just feels terrible .